Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Thanatophobia


Things are going okay. Miles and I had a nice Thanksgiving. I wish I could have seen my parents, but short of that we had a great time with my brother and other awesome family. And Charlie had a great time too! Work has been less stressful lately. I'm glad. I'm seeing a psychotherapist. He thinks my extreme anxiety is similar to post-traumatic stress disorder. I've heard about PTSD in cancer survivors before, so that sounds reasonable. Overall though, my anxiety has been lessening. I need to take a trip...

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

And Fall To Little Pieces Every Time


Weezer Across The Sea Live in Japan in HD is awesome. So is the bliss on Dougie's face when he gets to snuggle with me and Charlie at the same time. Miles and I are hoping to visit Japan within the next year.

Friday, November 5, 2010

Introducting Charlie Blog


I've started a second blog:

Charlie Our Golden Retriever Dog That We Love So Much And He Is Cool!

It's a little rough around the edges formatting-wise, but I am working on it!

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Help


I am freaking out so badly and not sure what to do. I am freaking out this second, but even worse, I am freaking out in general all the time at least a little. I am so scared of cancer coming back. I have some minor aches and pains and twinges here and there. Yet, I have no serious indication and all statistics point to me being okay for the duration of a long life. Still, I can't shake the insane, gut-wrenching fear. The last few months I've been anxious and then more anxious. But more recently my anxiety has been elevating to panic. I don't know how to not be terrified.

Pink Clouds & Fog


Charlie is losing his manhood today - probably just as I write this. I almost hit a mouse driving home the other night. I met with a psychiatrist the other day - he seemed nice & I cried. Miles and I celebrated our two-year wedding anniversary with steak dinner TWO times - Stark's has the best pre-dinner bread I have ever tasted. Miles caught Douglas snuggling with Charlie again, this time on Charlie's new giant plush dogbed. Something's wrong with Nutsy's mouth again so we're trying out the Forestville vet. Joseph is a "downstairs cat."