My Body The Turtle

In a lot of ways, my body has been slowly, slowly healing. I still have body aches and back/shoulder pains, but they don't prevent me from sleeping anymore. And I still have hot flashes, but they don't always wake me up at 6 am anymore. My biggest nemesis, my stomach, is nowhere near fixed yet. I miraculously had a few days break in the pain. I got so excited to eat that I overdid it. I need to nurture my poor tummy like a fragile flower, and instead I ate Arby's and pizza. Now it's back to hurting again daily. I'm so tired of it, so tired of eating rice and soup. So tired of being confined to the house or at least close by so I can come home and crawl in bed with my heating pad. I'm also so frustrated with the gastroenterologist. He has not called me with the CT-abdomen results, and it was 3 weeks ago!!! I found out from an unrelated doctor that the scan was fine. I guess the ugly truth is that most doctors simply don't care about you, as long as they make money and avoid lawsuits.

One doctor/medical group that does care is Dr. Singh at One Medical Group. Finally, I have found someone/someplace that cares. Too bad they don't have an oncologist...

I've been so tired of being cooped up at and around the house. Today we went to watch the sun rise at Mt. Tam. Then we stopped to take a walk on the beach until my stomach ruined the lovely morning. But we saw this dude!!!!!!!!!!!


He was with a bunch of other dude friends!


He came over to me on the beach and I pet him. Then he whipped around, put his front paws in the water and barked at the ocean. He was so awesome. I love him!

My hair is growing! It's already weird to look at my bald pictures and remember I was completely bald for 6+ months. I really love my hair right now, I think I'll stick with the shaved head for a while. Hah, along with my new head of hair, I've also been blessed with some unwanted facial hair! I think it's the fact that I'm still in menopause and my hormones are all messed up, combined with the fact that all this new hair on my body has never been bleached by the sun. It's not my favorite. But I'll take a mustache over cancer any day!